MUSIC - MY PASSION??
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hmm.. yeah i do love music..
[ im a musician]
or rather keyboardist..
after yesterday's message at Rzone21 passion,
i was like thinking, Is music my passion?
Well, It doesnt mean tt you r in the band
and you really haf this great passion for music yeah??
yah i do love piano..
but i jus DONT PRACTICE.
so you call that passion?
I think not..
im mediocre
i hate piano lessons
bcos i hate reading ' tau gay'
those stupid crotchets or whatever
i jus wanna learn and progress my own way..
i play the piano not just to pass exams or so on.
i wanna excel in it and play for the Kingdom of God
passion... its cool huhs
God is my motivation yeah..
I've started piano since 4.
so this year's my 8th year
haix. wasted half my life in yamaha..
if not now probably can be Grade 7 liao !
its like %^$*#^%&$*@*^% !!!
hmm.. should i blame my mum??
she was the one didnt allow me to drop out,
but six years were over and i started out for private lessons
but w/o those lessons, i wouldnt be playing in the band today..
thats one thing good..
or rather thats the only thing good..
i do well for theory basically is jus bcos i've outgrown those grades.
and im jus stuck with a miserable Grade 3 now.
really feel like a failure.
URGH!!!
Pple say i haf the talent, shd cherish it
hmm.. but how?
jus this morning,
i decided to give whatever i can to improve myself greatly in piano
perhaps i should make my ambition a professional pianist?
WOW!!
or like form an own band?
COOL MAN!!
oh! and i wanna learn drums man!
asked my parents.
and they said : who are you going to learn from?
hope they will allow me to learn it the way i want
i think they will make me go yamaha..
hey but i dont like tt kind of environment
its like so restricted..
or rather i would never wanna go back to yamaha
because i do not want to rmb the horrible n torturous six years i had there
im not sum1 like Gerald,
who is damn pro in hearing
and its like he had only learnt piano for ONE YEAR?
and he's very very very talented
so pple pray tt i will excel in piano one day yah?
---- my wish ---
and the thing is ,
im still dwelling over tt create thingy
of all the times for me to go out of tune during practices,
WHY MUS IT BE ON THE ACTUAL THING??
it really sucks man..
this few days i jus feel so lertagic(spelling??)
real depressed..
jus feel like crying for no reason..
mood swings.. no good..
i was like listening to this song by Twins - Wo hen xiang ai ta
and i jus cried
i dunno why, i jus cried.
click on this link --
http://www.mtv123.com/html/play/8/play_76416.html
try going to this link to listen..
its really nice..
the only song in my whole life den i bei gan dong dao.
although its not a christian song.. but jus go and listen it to it lar
the lyrics, its real nice..
i think at a teenage age, most of you peeps will be going thru this..
and please bear in mind tt IM NOT IN LOVE WITH ANYONE!!!!
so jus stop making wild guesses
i hate it when pple misunderstand my words
i hate it..
come on guys, why are people nowadays so .. so not open??
and i do not want rumours to be caused..

LOve you guys <3 !! GOD BLESS!!