Merry Christmas, Mr Lawrence

This song is niceeee!
Got the piano score from minyi today ((:

but its in 5 FLATS!
4 sharps are good enough to kill me.
FIVE FLATS eh!
all black keys! D:
think i'll take one month to master that piece? D:
i wanna learn it as soon as possible!
i shall devote one hour everyday to play that piece.

After training, went for HOF.
'' Peter, pink pizzas '' ((:
did i get the title right?

the message really really spoke to me.

whatever ive been through this year,
hardly anyone will understand that emotional struggle in me,
that ive been trying to control.
i know, right now, im not the only one going through it.
YOU are too.

and seeing & hearing & pondering about
unpleasant stuffs makes me pissed.
still, tolerate tolerate tolerate.

and just about 3 hours ago.
i realise that somethings really arent worth for me
to get so worked up for.
whats the use?
You cant exchange hearts with anyone for that someone to understand.

The current situation just makes me say in my fixed position.
unable to move.
immobolised.

So, just behave like small kids.
immature and fairytale thinkings.

Birthday is in two months time
Do i have three wishes?

1) BIG teddy bear.
2) To love and play music more
3) * havent thought about it yet

i know i know my posts are emo.
Aya, i dont like the word emo luh.
sounds so self-pitying
Im not okay.
Im not.

I just tend to get more emotional at times.
nothing wrong eh?

NEVER CRITICISE (spelling??) ANYONE'S BLOG.
ITS THEIR LIFE.
WHY BOTHER?