a smile for everything to be fine?

just a sentence used to calm myself down

sometimes i really dont get it.
why is it that the people around me dont seem
to be able to understand how i feel.

If a pair of ears is there just for my words to go in,
and then come out again,
then i would rather talk to my dog.

A non-stop habit
of playing guessing games everyday.
tough tough.

sadness, the most unwanted emotion
its so stubborn.
no matter how you force it out
no matter how you deceive yourself that its no longer there
ITS STILL THERE.

and the best way to express it, is to cry.
YEAH so you tell people you cried because you were unhappy
and they just go ;
huh. cry for what. cry also no use. aiyoh why you so emo.

eh heh. common sense luh.
Who would want to cry for nothing?
You can't command tears to stop !?

crying, a way of expressing self-pitiness?
only bimbos do that.

I dont need dreams.
I wont give myself the chance to be let down.
Because when you have no hopes.
you wont feel disappointed.

I dont wanna put my hands up in the empty sky.
Going on in life, believing and hoping for things.
That will only put us at the origin.
There would be no strength for moving ahead.
When we run carefree, ahead,
all our pain will be forgotten.

i see nothing ahead of me.
Thus, i really dont expect anything.